yeahs!love todays supper.diyanah father came to fetch me to cp.then met the rest of the ppl.took cab to bukit simpang with maam firda..alice..and diyanah...reached there.woah.the table was super long!there was a total of ard 30 ppl.part-timers and full timers..mostly were present.ok.time to ordered...we(7 ppl) ordered as if the food was free.lets see.we ordered...steak.bone stick.chicken wing and fries.chilli sotong.black pep prawn.roti john.bundung mee.omelette.milo dinosaur.juices...blah blah.augustine ate like there was no tmr.the best part is we dun even need to pay a cent=))the cab $$ was also sponsered by swensens.so i practically paid 0.00 for this supper.it was great having evrybody tgt.it's the happiest moment i ever had in swensens..the total bill only add up to 280+ yup.30 ppl--the amt..sat sir raymond car home aftwards with diyanah and wee ming.im really very happy today...=))


If you love someone, put their name in a circle instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever






from left: Wee ming ( housefly)... Leonice (sista)...me













my ice cream mates!

oh yea!went bugis today!=))

bought the things i wanted.not all thou.things i've yearned for so so long.ppl who went: yiying..jocelyn..sailatha..liyun..joyce.met joanna dar..eunice dear and mallory in the train today.wohaha.we acted like long lost fren..went parco bugis and all.walked and walked..aft tt went terra cafe to find kim.haha.fated.she was working.yup.saw chen wei lian shooting some songs there.ya it was CHEN WEI LIAN.tt superstar.woah!cool.

had a poll to see whether to eat at terra or swensens..yeah.of cas.swensens won.haha.went to have the outrageous sundae.2 topless 5 and 2 banana split.had a hard time choosing the 16 flavors.heehee.guess wad..while eating..chen weilian and one of the superstar guy came in.ahaha.yea.im surprised atthe fact tt there was'nt any fans or ppl ard him tking photos or wanting his photogragh.

went to bugis street aftwards.yeah!i've bought the bag i wanted!bought a white nail polish also.white rawks.ltr on..went back to parco to buy my billabong flip flops.alritess mann! spend less than 50 in total.not forgetting the neoprints we took,ice cream $$ and takopachi.hhehee.

shopping adds colour to my life man!

supper at 11.30 ltr!at bukit simpang with ice cream mates.

big bird: hey...it hurts me to see you like this...you're a very very gd fren and PTE...and i don wish to see you like this...maybe yr love for her is jus so so so deep that it cant even be remove.i cant be at sch now with you alr...wadeva happened to this 15 yr old gal...once so innocent and simple...maybe i cant understand wad u're gg thru..breaking down evry now and then...hais...dunno wad to say to you also.

will always be here for you if u need me =))
anw..this song is dedicated to you =))

yawnss...slept at 5.30am..woke up at 7.15am...got a shock when i woke up.tot i was late..met up wif yiying to have breakfast at LJS..the breakfast was so delicious..but it was late.so we ate the hashbrown and dabao the rest...walked to sch and waited for the bus to bring us to PA(police academy)the bus was late...so ya.sat in 2 circles and prayed.had chocolate feast ah.ya.felt so happy coming to sjc npcc.jnrs did very well for the campcraft comp.im soo proud of dem.hope tt both teams can get into finals.went to cp kfc aft comp...having cramps..arghx.i cld only say i treasure the moment with all of you...gawd noes when can we meet up like tt agian.

to dan: hey sry..cant play squash with you today..cant go punggol end with you...=(really sry =)















...i feel so distance with you...

arghx...stomachache...slept at 5.30am yst.woke up at 9 plus...den 12 plus..then 1 plus...then 2 plus...then 4pm.=))pro sia...went work..heehee.guess i was lucky today.had many fries and rodeo wings.maybe i was too lucky...accidently spill the banana crumble banana.and evrything was on the floor...the caramel and banana.ARGH!my gosh.tt small area was practically flooded...

anw gg to the campcraft comp tmr..all the best ppl

behind these hazel eyes...

ohh...im gg to go shopping one of these days mann...will be using my pay..

alritess...this saturday...will be either doing...

plan 1
play squash with dan
aft tt she'll come my hse and study and slp(my bed is nice to slp)
then go punggol end

plan 2
go for the campcraft comp...
yiying is probably gg too

arghs..mama which one...i wanna go support big bird...aftall it's campcraft comp..moreever yiying will be gg also...

anw...i've planned my week.

sunday
will be playing badminton with joyce...yiying..cherly..latha..jocelyn..
yeah=))will be at cherly hse downstair...so it does'nt matter cas my hse is near to hers


and between now and then...till i see you agian..i'll be loving you...





ohh...at yoshi with lao po..sharing tt stupid jelly

feel like crying now...hais...i miss sch.
i miss 4faith..miss evrybody...jus flip thru my SPO ( students personal organiser) there is so so so many things inside...so many things i've wrote over the yr.

memories left by yueying...yiying...weikang...yvonne lao po...joanna darling...camilla...shih han...haha.still can rmb him eh.haha.

really hope tt i can get into SP-biomedical with yiying and camilla...such a coincedence..camilla also chose this course...

worked from 12-3 today..3hours only...ate banana cum apple crumble aft work.oh and a firehouse too...aft tt i drank a bowl of soup.ate raspberry cum melon yogurt fruz...wad a sumptous...erm..sumptous..."high tea"...haha.kamalia was nice...she knew it was my last wk working..so she treated me to the yogurt.=)) thx...

listening to shan hu hai now...feeling abit depress now...had a talk with leonice jus now abt ppl in swensens...HAHHAA...she said something tt made me abit happy..but god knows wad tt person is thinking...hais...anw will not be seeing tt person anymore..

no more...

hmms...this will be my last week working in swensens...have told my manager tt i wanna quit...

50% of qutting is cas of the pay.
25% is cas of some ppl.
15% cas i get to spend lesser time with my family and friends.
10% cas of the work tt we need to do.

yup...but aftall i'll miss alot of my colleagues there...hais...heard tt there's such a law: those under 17 caught loithering ard aft 11pm will be given a warnig letter by the police...haha.weird.but cool.was paisehed at work today cas of....

uh huh...weird dreams appearing again.i was trembling when i woke up...the dream started like this...i was suppose to be working in swensens.but i was slping behind.then i went out to macs to eat with..erm...wk...ya tt jerk.i dreamt of him..then somebody said to hurry up leave cas some dangerous ppl are coming.and the next thing i saw was me running in the sch carpark and meidan,kwai was suppose to be the bad ppl.uh huh.so far so weird!then some police came and guess wad.adeline lau was one of them and she protected me.lols.meidan and the other accomplice had gun.so the police and them exchanged a few shots.then the next thing tt happen was meidan asked me to dance with her.the dance we use to dance.?i wonder wad izit.haha.then while we were dancing half way..her accomplice shot me in my back.i dropped down and had my last breath..miracally at my last breath i perked up.i wanted to write a letter to my parents before i die.i wanted to call them before i die.hahahaha.we were sort in a lift or something.my cousin gave me a paper and pen to write down..i knew i was gg to die.but i still cld walked and talk?!!?haha.asked the doctor if i were to have a operation now will i die?he replied yes...the last scene was me gg for operation and everybody was ard me.i told them i wanted the sch song to be played at my funeral.we said the angel pray and i cried..caz aft this operation i may not wake up.the last thing tt was done was fat needles gg thru my back.uh huh...haha.this whole dream felt so real.when i woke up i realised huw precious life is and im afraid of dying..i imagined ppl attending my funeral..also i realised huw much i love my sch...(for the sch song to be played during my funeral?!!?)

jus came home from fu hui.had charity dinner today.went to do help out.yiying and wan nee was in the same grp as me too.heehee...this yr again..one table was empty so gd la.we had a chance to eat...vegetarian food is nice...saw a series of performance...the emcee was bryan wong.wang lu jiang.ya.so cool....1st time see him live.haha.anw todays PTE day.18th feb.16 months le i think...big bird's bz...hais...nvm..wonder is he there today...

lol.went for typhoid injection today.was so sos sooosooOO scared.ok.i don deny tt i have phobia for injections.i can feel the pain jus imagining it!asked alice to follow me up to raffles medical.thx.she had to sacrifice her break time jus to accompany me.so nice of her...

anw..went up.went in.i was terrified by then.my hands were sweaty and cold.then i sat down reluctantly.haha..then the doc inject lo..haha.i was scarign myself..before i knew it he was done..jus felt a prick and nthg else...good!

haha

till then
humph!she is soOO bias against me.she did dat on purpose!i hate her...

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on
,'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.


this song jus..jus...i love it...

im online again.gg work ltr..haiya.today untill 11pm..sians.this whole wk( oh i shld have used WEEK instead of WK,,,im sensitive to the word "WK" ya)

yiying's brother currently missing!ya missing..so dunno whether are we still having lunch at jack's place not.jay chou's sons are all so nice..it somehow bring backs memory.so fast..i've leave my sch.it's the year 2006 now and i've jus submitted my future.ready to enter my next phase of life.hais.nobody knows wad the future holds for us.

!!! i've finally sign up for the course!!!

omg...it's soO unbelivable mann..

argh!!!im very scared i'll regret wad i put...

1st choice: Biomedical at SP
2nd: Biomedical at TP
3rd: Biomedical Science at NP

the rest inclusive of Business and media studies and Food science..opted of chinese studies and mass comp too...thru the tt thing..argh..wad if i regret...hope i'll get into the 1st choice i want.cas yiying gg also..actually wanted business..but mom said im too innocent.the business world is cruel and evil?!haha..gosh.it's like typing and submitting ur future!!!!ekkss!!!!arh!!!

gosh..pray hard both me and yiying will get into the course..hais=(

ohh.anw todays valantine's day!!!!ohh..as usual i slept til 3 in the aftnn.heehee.went to wokr at 5.swensens is so nicely decorated with heart balloon.the queue was SOOOOOOOOOOO long...it was SOOOOO tiring..woah.90% of the ppl were couples..out of the 90%--10% were students..mostly JC's..haha.so rich worh..heehee

till then
pray

great!!!

i've finally got back my results!!!

ok..it sucks

L1R5---23(it's like?!!)

L1R4---12(oh yea!!!=))

finally the kind of feeling tt keep u in suspense is gone!!went cp for lunch b4 results..i love tt moment.half of 4F was like there and all were in sch u.centre of attraction.haha.we took mani mani pics.I LOVE 4F!!!we were sOO bonded.and oh ya amanda gave us this beautiful piece of friendship stuff.and cherly gave me this keychain tt she made.ohh...my classmates are all soo sweet.hais...but this is our last gathering as a whole...sad..

ohh anw..went for work at 5 plus...hate work today!hate u especially.y are u always so bias against me?!i seriously dun understand!so wad if u are a*****.humph!!

ok back to my o's result
Eng--b3
Combined humans--b3
Mathematics--a2(omg!!! i got A for maths when i always faill maths one!!!!)im satisfied
Biology--c6(hais)
Science(phy/chem)--c6(hais)
Chinese--b3
Chinese oral--dist=))

ok...say it's lousy..say im stupid for getting 2 c6..but i really regretted not studying sciences more properly..but i did really try my best for bio

our sch gave us this cd..omg it's nice ok...there's the prom night..youth day performance with all those mini videos our tchers did..all the graduating class...hais..it's so nice..i will defintaly treasure this cd....

till then
SIMPLE IN VIRTUE
STEADFAST IN DUTY

work was boring today..patially due to the sleepiness in me..woke up in the morning..my eyes was abit red and wet.dreamt of my o's result.and it was bad.cried terribly.

went to chinatown again aft work with yiying.went there cas she needed to buy something which she dunno wad thing( which is in fact the wall sticker?!)dots dots.went there also cas we wanted to eat jiao zi and yam cake.simlpy love the yam cake.went to coffee bean and sat there til 7 plus i think.the environment was nice.shall go there next time agian..

ok serious business..

o's result is out tmr!

i dunno.

i dun wish to think abt it

woke up at 11 plus today.went swimming with yiying at 2.jus love the sun.got a nice tan.till now my face and shoulder are blushing red.heehe.cld have tan more but gotta work at 5.anw in the end still late.ran in swen.was ok today..except i felt tt idah had something against me.dunno y...went home..nose bleed again.mum said i was too heaty.(really?)i hope so.cas in drama when ppl nose bled frquently they die in the end..

till then..
im watching too much drama

ok...results are really on friday!!!!

arh!!!!!!

im really gonna score badly and all.!!#%##$^^

shit!

arh!!!!!when i think of it...

i've no appetite
gonna puke..

pray hard ppl
pray for me
pray for you
pray for everyone

ok.it all started with the wind!it blew my memo board on the floor.then,some badges dropped on the floor.and i din'nt knoe it.happily i walked to the door and then...i stepped on the anti drug abuse badge.the poky poky thing practically got stuck in my feet.i look at it in astonishment.mum was like aiyo aiyo then she faster pull it out for me.the feeling was...i saw blood oozing out,felt the pain.thought of ppl saying wad will happen if u step a nail.(u will probably die?)took a look at the nail to check for rust.felt like fainting alr at tt point of time so i saw only blood on th nail.felt tt i was gg to faint,told my mother i was gg faint.tt was my last words(miraclely,the song shan hu hai was still in my head).when i woke up,all i cld hear was my name and medical oil..ohh and the song accidently in love.cas it was still playing on my comp.felt pain on my head.haha like duh.obviously.cant believe i really fainted alritess.so dramatic.

till then
my feet hurts
my head hurts
hope i'll not die

slept at 4 plus am...dunno y..jus cried and cried till i was too tired den fall asleep.hais.was thinkin of tt jerk.have i really put this past behind me?now and then when im alone.he's image and name will jus pop out of nowhere..urgh..

till then,
o's result are comin out

evry step i take is to bring myself closer to u.

beautiful words.

went bank with maam wan ing today.she's so nice.bought me a pancake while i was queing fer her.feel myself so lucky to have a manager like her.haha.ok.was setter again today.argh.
oh ya!!!got sch yr book le!!!!!omgosh.simply love it!!got a few my pics!!ehehehehe so honoured

best part was the p.o.p and prom night!!!=))

i love my sch!!!!